a rainy-day studio diary
artist notes from my magical music desk | what i’m making, feeling, and dreaming
hello my beautiful listeners,
i figured it would feel tasty to send you an overview of what’s cooking in my artist’s brain and let you inside the creative process. below is my apersonal diary (unfiltered thoughts about what’s happening today) + a report on my current projects + an update on what skills i’m training + a list of the parts of my mind who are popping up as i create. scoot in a little closer. i’m grateful you’re on this journey with me. ;)
studio diary
it’s raining pouring greyness outside in seattle and i’m sitting on the floor in a colorful living room. headphones on. listening to my newest song…it’s rough, a sketch, so many parts i need to re-record. but im diggin’ it.
all summer i was in hawaii recording with my microphone cutting out any sustained notes. i accidentally had the voice isolation turned on. (hand over my face ugh). figured that out so now i’m recording again…and the vocals are being picked up in their fullness!! woohoo!! technically difficulties man.
i pushed through and just sang in a different way - not using my full range or belting power, to work around the faulty recording. but now im in seattle with my tech wizard husband. this little song came flowing in and it’s the first one ive recorded with full range back.
this song i’m working on today is called “Blue Desire” — inspired by an old lover’s gorgeous crystal blue eyes…which parts of me remember so fondly and miss gazing into. and his touch. i miss his uber present touch that made my entire body soften. his eyes and his touch. but that love was never meant to last long…drenched in forbiddenness. so…i guess i’ll just write a song about it ;) lol
projects on the go
songs from the summer of detox + grief + breakup (all the demos you’re hearing on youtube) — need funding to finish this project with professional engineering
laborland
miss you
trust me
smaller
ASMR video game — theme song, sound effects, creating the whole sonic universe…oufffff. epic project in the works.
— me with my best friend playing video games on a wednesday morning instead of going to work…getting in the mood to create video game music lol …literally playing LOL though (league of legends)…i’m playing Miss Fortune ;)
training
ever improving and strengthening my singing voice — daily singing exercises and practicing being more in body, feeling physical pleasure so i can be in deeper state of flow — so the music just dances through me instead of me trying to create from my cerebral mind
dipping back into music theory (exploring MODES). need to understand how to use scales in a more creative way so the video game theme can switch between feelings in different scenes/moods/scenarios
i asked chatGPT to create this photo for me…the vibes i feel when i’m creating.
my parts
a young part easily discouraged or overshadowed by my brother’s musical skill, knowledge or dominating presence…he hogs the airspace and my part feels small
a part feels sensitive to her environment, “uninspired” unless she has the perfect set up for making music.
another part judges part #2 for being high maintenance, diva, not professional enough to work in on demand regardless
a part is daydreaming about performing live again. she wants me to grab my piano and mic and hit the stage. to hear my voice live in the room touching people’s flesh and heart again. she misses the physical vibrations and tension in the air and the magic of gripping people’s souls, holding their attention and guiding them through a tender emotion
a part says part #4’s dream requires too much energy, too much planning, won’t be worth the effort
a part is dreaming of mentoring artists
thank you for supporting my work and being with me on this journey. from what i’ve shared today, what are you most excited about? what are you curious about? reply. id love to hear from you.
xoxo
CHA🍍WILDE
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